Monday, February 21, 2011
There is a lot you learn about yourself when you have kids. I think your true self really comes out when you are exhausted. And being exhausted is a much too common occurrence with young children. I thought once K and J were out of the infant stage, I wouldn't have days when I could fall asleep if I sat still for more than 5 minutes. Oh, the naivety! J has been sick; and when he doesn’t feel good, he doesn’t sleep good. When he doesn’t sleep good, neither does Mom (me) or Dad. Lucky for us, K sleeps like a rock and never wakes up during J’s nighttime crying sprees. He is often the only one in the house getting a good night’s sleep.
I know I have next to no patience when I am tired. Unfortunately this can affect both my work interactions, and more often my interactions with my boys. At work I can generally keep myself in check, but at home, it seems harder to do. It's like my daily quota of patience was used up during the work hours. K has a way of dillydallying that is just so frustrating sometimes. And when I have to ask him 5 times to get undressed or sit down in his chair etc, I find myself reaching the boiling point. I am definitely more of a yeller at these moments than Dad is, ever. And I often regret it later. But that is something I learned about myself and I am working on to be a better parent. I know my boys deserve my best, and don’t always get it. I no I will never be a perfect parent, and that is OK too.
How about you? What have you learned about yourself as a parent? (please share in the comment section below!)